I miss my dad a lot today. I watched Juno and it made me really want to see him and talk to him - i think because of Juno’s relationship with her dad. Some things are just fixed by a big reassuring dad hug and a few choice words. I knew he’d most likely be asleep so I called my mum and had a long chat with her. It was good to speak to her but I’ll try my dad tomorrow. At least just to tell him I miss him. It’s good that he knows how this sort of organisation (and how the world) works. I still try to keep myself under the impression that my dad almost knows everything. It scares me endlessly that one day I might not be able to talk to him so readily and I worry that I’m wasting time away from some inportant people but I think parts of life are about compromise. I’m making him proud, and following my own aspirations at the same time, it just happens to be a hundred miles away from him.
Real life is hard.